THE FEAR
University, it's like school but for adults, at least that's how it's described to you by your older counterparts who've been there and done that. University is much more than that, university means big decisions, moving away from everything and everyone that you know and with that, comes fears. As someone who recently moved away to university, I know that moving away as a concept creates a lot of anxiety, as it did for me. From the whole experience I learnt, take university as an opportunity to broaden your horizons. One particularly endearing thing that's nice to remember when it comes to moving away to university is that, everyone else is in the same boat, they all share the same fears.
The 8th of September 2017, for most people just another regular day, for me that day meant something quite different, it meant saying my final goodbyes to my friends and family. I was assured that moving away to Scotland would be both eye-opening and an adventure. Although this somewhat rang true, I was overtaken by a consuming feeling of anxiety but also at the same time excitement. I was showered with presents and support from my friends and left them with the promise I'd see them again soon.
Fast forward to next day, I quickly prepared for my twelve hour drive from London to Scotland, being in the car alone for that amount of time gave me an opportunity to ponder what challenges await at the other side. Those twelve hours went by quickly and before I knew it, I was seeing directions guiding me to Stirling. Some time went by, and I saw the glowing green sign for University of Stirling, I pulled up to be handed my flat key and was told to unload the car of my possessions. At that moment, it all became real, very real.
I lugged my possessions up the three flights of stairs where I found my room. At this moment, I had a brief encounter with one of my flatmate and with that came some comfort, I felt at rest, resolved, I took the whole thing as an opportunity to reinvent myself and socialise with other like minded creatives.
I felt at home, as if this is where I belong, and all felt right, and finally I was free of the fear.
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